It's the first Thanksgiving I've spent with no family, but regardless if was awesome :3

Spent the morning for a Kiki's Delivery Service cosplay shoot with Miguel and Kim that was very quick but very productive and fun, thank you so much you two!!

Then Miguel and I watched a bit of the Avatar marathon on NickToons before coming over to Alison's. We made a quick trip to Wal Mart and said bye to Joy and Michelle, who're moving to Georgia on Saturday T_T But at least I got to say 'bye, and I know I'll see them every once in a while~

We came back, played Brawl, made Mii's, played Mario Kart, ate delicious delicious food, and played more Brawl, and roamed over here so I could do some last minute check-ups online before going home.

Tomorrow is my photoshoot with Maggi, woohoo.

Hope everyone else had a lovely day, or Thanksgiving!!

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands [fannish etc.] that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
2) Have your f-list guess your favourite character/member from each item.
3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.

1.) Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle (bekalou )
2.) xxxHolic
3.) X/1999 (zack_mcdohl )
4.) Kingdom Hearts (_midnight_blue )
5.) Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time (bekalou )
6.) Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess (zack_mcdohl )
7.) Legend of Zelda: Windwaker
9.) The World Ends With You (rehime )
10.) Final Fantasy VII (_midnight_blue )
11.) Final Fantasy IX (waterpuzzle_ )
12.) Final Fantasy X (_midnight_blue )
13.) Glee (zack_mcdohl )
14.) Heroes (zack_mcdohl
15.) Cardcaptor Sakura (bekalou )
16.) Kuroshitsuji (waterpuzzle_
17.) Harry Potter (_midnight_blue )
18.) Avatar: The Last Airbender zack_mcdohl
19.) Bleach (waterpuzzle_ )
20.) Neon Genesis Evangelion (waterpuzzle_ )

I think I'll leave it there 'cause I can't think of other favorite fandoms at the moment XD And I like how I stretched out LoZ and FF XD;;

And I added a few more because I realized how many other fandoms I left out. Just enough to top out to 18 XD

I have less than two weeks of school left. I could've sworn I had more time...

In history, I have a short-response essay due, as well as document journals: 20 little 6-sentence entries. All due Monday. In Japanese, I have a research presentation due preferably on Monday, due Wedensday, at the latest, on final's day the Monday after. And my full final portfolio is due on Wedensday in photography, all film labs complete and our final project as well.

Oh, and then the finals themselves for history and Japanese: an in-class essay, and a chapter test.

...

I never thought I'd say this but I would do anything just to have one more week of classes.

On the bright side, I'm almost out, a lot sooner than I expected, but yeah.... so much is due at the same time that I really won't have much time to do anything else this weekend other than study study study. Even Thanksgiving... I might cram a photoshoot in the morning, and then the day after I'm off to San Diego to meet maggifan and mlarad for some fun in Balboa Park, since those two photoshoots are part of my photography final.

So, yeah, don't expect to see much of me until after Dec. 9 o.O

In the meantime, listening to Legend of Zelda music and buying the little kiddy Ocarina of Time manga is keeping my spirits high. Alison and I constantly swooned over Link during our study session tonight heeheeeeeheeeee he's so hawwwt ^_________^

Okay off to bed, I'm ridiculously sleepy =_=;;

My knees are flaring up again. And though I get the occasional pang of pain or achy joint... they're flaring up badly this time. My friends who were in marching band with me should be able to note how much "bad" is bad for me: I feel like the times I had to sit out for full practices because my knees were so buckled in pain I could bend them. Yeah... nearly that bad.

I can still walk, but even a hike around my school (since Mt. SAC is on the face of a hill, going to class really is a hike for me) now hurts a lot. The other day at work my knees flared up so badly I started limping.

And though my knees are the main source of pain, the discomfort of them spread to my feet, hips and lower back. My feets hurt from limping and having to walk differently than I normally would when I don't limp, and why my hips and lower back hurt I don't know, they just do.

Hm.

I really need to ask a third opinion on this. In high school, I was first told I had autoimmune disorder: my white blood cells attack healthy cells. Which can lead to a various of certain problems. In my case: junior arthritis. A second doctor, though, told me it was merely a really bad case of flat feet: I have absolutely no arch in my feet at all o.O

Both fit, and I'm hoping I don't have both. I know for sure I have flat feet, and because my knees hadn't flared up so badly since high school, I assumed the best and thought the blood tests they viewed way back when just had an ample amount of white cells, a little higher than normal, and that I didn't have autoimmune.

But this flare up is screaming arthritis all over the place. Especially when it got really cold for a few days last week. That's when they really buckled.

I won't get to see a doctor until after the holidays, maybe, once I'm more firmly settled in all the recent and current changed. But I need to go to a third, different doctor. I'm wondering if I should straight-out "I think I have autimmune disorder waddya think?" or jsut take the regular blood tests they do to determine if anything at all is wrong.

For the record: I'm oddly amused by all this. Though it really does hurt, I amuse myself by calling myself a little old brittle woman. Especially when I do an odd limp when my hips hurt. xD

I hope it's just flat feet and that my entire body posture is completely out of whack and out of line do to that. But I'll see.

I don't know why I posted this. I think it was because my hip buckled when I got up after eating and I had to limp my way up the hill to the library. lol.

What happens after you have me playing Windwaker for two hours, flip through a 2005 magazine offering a sneak preview to the new LoZ game (Twilight Princess lol), and a blank white Expo board with dry-erase marker at 12:15am?

This...

About three things I was absolutely certain. First, Edwart was most likely my soul mate, maybe. Second, there was a vampire part of him–which I assumed was wildly out of his control–that wanted me dead. And third, I unconditionally, irrevocably, impenetrably, heterogeneously, gynecologically, and disreputably wished he had kissed me.

And thus Belle Goose falls in love with the mysterious and sparkly Edwart Mullen in the Harvard Lampoon’s hilarious send-up of Twilight.

Pale and klutzy, Belle arrives in Switchblade, Oregon looking for adventure, or at least an undead classmate. She soon discovers Edwart, a super-hot computer nerd with zero interest in girls. After witnessing a number of strange events–Edwart leaves his tater tots untouched at lunch! Edwart saves her from a flying snowball!–Belle has a dramatic revelation: Edwart is a vampire. But how can she convince Edwart to bite her and transform her into his eternal bride, especially when he seems to find girls so repulsive?

... I NEED TO READ THIS NOW. Yes, it's a Twilight parody, by National Lampoon. I saw my Twilight-obsessed coworker buying it and I'm begging that she lets me borrow it after her. I really need a good laugh at Twilight, since the Twitards are back as the New Moon hype builds up -_-;;

Anywho I thought you guys might enjoy it since almost my entire flist dislikes Twilight heavily XD

-Dad is getting progressively healthier and will soon be leaving the hospital in the next few days. He and my brother also met, spoke, and made up with each other (they've been estranged since soon after my mom passed away). So that's left me insanely happy and relieved. Still lots of stuff to do: renting out the house and getting my dad situated with disability, but the worst has passed, I think.

-Christmas is coming, and it makes me sad. I have no money to celebrate this year, nothing to give anyone. I know it's not about the gifts but too many people have helped me out this year that it makes me so sad I can't really give much back. I'll try. I do have a lot to be thankful for this holiday season so at least it's not a meaningless holiday.

-Joy is moving away. Too far and too soon for my liking. But the Bleach photoshoot and going-away party from last weekend was lots of fun, and I know she'll be coming for some cons, and she'll be dragging me away to AWA (she's moving to Georgia). Her house has a huge closet under the stairs over there, big enough for a bed. They plan to decorate it like Harry Potter's bedroom, and I have claimed the closet under the stairs as my guestroom for when I visit her XD;;

-Glee made me tear up tonight. And Defying Gravity <3 I turned on my Wicked soundtrack after the episode and belted out to Defying Gravity. I forgot how beautiful and touching that song was, and it made me miss theater so much it almost hurt.

-OMG THE PRINCESS AND FROG I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT IT'S A MONTH AWAY. I had a spazz attack at the Disney Store, when I saw the little dresses for girls that are replicas of Tiana's ballroom dress (GREEN) and her wedding dress. I seriously cannot wait to see this movie: I know I'll cry because I've got way too many roots to Disney. I've convinced Christopher to go with me, bribing him with the movie's soundtrack, which is bound to be ultra-jazzy :] and I wanna shoot myself for considering making Tiana's ballroom dress. It's huge and poofy and beautiful and GREEEEEEEEEN <3

-Thanks to Joy, I can't get Lady Gaga's Pokerface. It's all thanks to this stupid clip from Southpark XD;;



That is all for now :]

Driving back and forth from here to LA almost everyday is way too mind-draining. With the distance and the traffic, and gas too (now that I have the truck, not the Geo).

The surgery went well. But it was still unnerving to see my dad in the ICU hooked up to every possible medical machine in existence. It was comforting that Christopher knew almost everything of what was going on, and with his method of explaining things un-sugarcoated but still calmly and smoothly made me much more calmer than I probably would've been.

I didn't spend more than 10 minutes with my dad, really. He was still unconcious, and hopefully by now would've already woken up. The bitchy nurse that monitored him endlessly told us he was in critical condition, though Christopher said that was a bit too harsh of a condition for her to say. Critical but stable, he says. Heart surgery is no picnic and isn't like the surgeries I've experienced with other family members: my mom's tumor removals and such. While she'd be dazed but awake, my dad was on a ventilator and such. And yeah, it was highly unnerving to see and really scary, I could somehow tell that he'd really be okay, despite the urgency on the ICU floor, seeing him so incapacitated, and hooked up to a million tubes and wires and monitors.

My brother came along, and we spent a good chunk in Burbank with his wife, my niece, and Christopher. Laughing, because in times like these laughter is quite a necessity. We were obviously nervous but, what good would it do us to sit in the waiting room while they told us the same thing hour after hour? I felt calm with my little family, since that's all I really have. My dads sisters were there, but I avoided them because I didn't want to deal with all their pessimistic prayer sessions: it brought back way too many bad memories of my moms sisters. And yes, I prayed myself and have been again for the first time in a while, but mostly to my mom. And for hope.

It might sound incredibly politically incorrect to say this but, I really find myself annoyed by little middle-aged Mexican Catholic women. I have nothing against middle aged women, Mexicans (duh, I'm Mexican), and Catholic (my darling Caitlin is the most sane Catholic I've ever met, therfore redeeming the people of this particular faith for me. I was raised Catholic myself.) people. A combination of those three, though, drive me insane.

Because they over-dramatize everything. And they are highly unrealistic. My aunts swore that my mom could be saved when the cancer had spread to her bones and other organs. I didn't want to lose my mom but seriously, the obvious is there, and I had to let go. They could've accepted it, and simply prayed for a simple passing, and celebrated her life. But no, they made an enourmous deal and acted as if her death was such a shock and surprise when we had known for about a month that it was inevitable.

Now, these aunts are at it again, mourning my dad as if he died, when it's quite obvious he's very much alive. It was a surgery with the purpose of prolonging his life. Not an easy one, but still.

Yet some random little middle aged Mexican Catholic woman approached me the day before his surgery (she was a relative to the patient in the bed next to him) and gave me a very severe look: "Please, take very good care of you father. He's very sick and you as his daughter cannot leave his side for one moment." I looked over to see my dad sitting up on a chair (not even his own bed), drinking the Sprite he asked me to bring him, and watching TV.

LOL.

My dad doesn't want me there contantly. He wants me to see him, yes, and to not totally abandon him and ignore this huge issue, but he told me to try and not miss anymore school or work (the only reasons why I'm here and I'm not calling off tomorrow). He's calm knowing I'll see him for a bit or even talk to him over the phone. And that's good enough for me, too.

I really have appreciated the outpour of prayers aimed at me and my dad. I know I haven't been a person of faith in a very long time, but coming from people who very sincerly hope for the best from me and take their time in praying for the best, not the worst, makes me feel much better than having a priest being summoned by people who expect the worst outcome. And nothing more.

... I know my dad doesn't want me to miss any more school but I'm heading to LA after Japanese. I know we're not doing much in photography, and I haven't had any updated on my dad, which leaves me very antsy. I mean... at least nothing bad has happened. No news is good news. Marriana told me she'd update me on any sudden changes and news, but I'm assuming everything has gone okay. I just want to go see him for myself, and see if he's awake. He might not be able to talk yet, but he'll probably calm down when he sees me.

I'll see... I just wanna go home and sleep for a week straight. T_T

First off: I hope everyone who went to Yaoi Con had a blast~!! I'm so bummed that I didn't get to go, but I did enjoy my Halloween! I can't wait to see pictures!

So, this past weekend was quite the eventful one. For the past couple of weeks my dad has been going back in and out of the hospital, though to a different one. One where they actually did something and came to an actual diagnosis. And one that was much cleaner, larger, and has a very wonderful, lively, nice staff.

My dad is obviously having some heart problems, and even now I forget exactly what they are. I know that an artery is dangerously close to being blocked, and something else that is causing his arithmia(sp?), or irregular heartbeats.

While a couple procedures were already made on him to make his heart work a little less harder, they concluded that the safest bet would be a heart surgery, which will take place tomorrow morning.

I was quite scared when I found this out, and I'm sure my dad was too, but since then we've both been rather calm and accepting of it. It's for the best, and we'll just have to accept whatever will happen. We're both optomistic about all this, and simply hoping for the best.

However, since my dad will be in the hospital for a good chunk of this month, I'm obviously going to be severely busy. I'll be running errands and trips to LA between classes and work (I'm headed out there right after this). We also have a candidate to rent the house from us, which excites me and makes me extremely nervous since I have yet to find a place of my own.

So to anyone who tries to get a hold of me but can't: don't worry. I'm really calm, and yes, quite nervous, but nonetheless calm. My dad is in pretty good spirits himself and amuses me with his complaints about his sisters. We don't need any pessimism or pity. Just good thoughts. Anything other than that won't help much. My aunts (my dads sisters, not my moms) have agreed to help me in anything I need, mainly money wise, so I won't go hungry or without gas.

And I have my dad's truck to get around for the time being, since my little car is temporarily rendered dead XD;; (I'll write about
that another day).

So, I'll do my best to get back to anyone who contacts me or wants to hang out, but I'm thinking that any spare minute I find I might want to use it for myself. So, again, don't freak out terribly if you can't get a hold of me or haven't heard from me in a while. My dad felt bad about me not making it to Yaoi Con, and he says to try and plan out another little vacation for myself soon after his surgery. He knows I'm stressed and I want to get away for a bit, but even if I could, I really need to work as much as I can. The holidays are coming up, which means I'll be even busier juggling full-time status at work starting Thanksgiving weekend.

All will be good, I'm sure of it. I didn't want to leave everyone in the dark about what's going on with me and I would've brought it up sooner... only all this was revealed on me just this past weekend. So in a sense, it's a bit of a good thing I didn't make it to Ycon ^^;

Okay, so, yeah, I'm off, and I'll try to get back to everyone on how my dad is doing after tomorrow. Wish the best for us :]

 Seriously getting this insurance is such a pain it's almost not worth it. It's even got my dad annoyed and apologizing to me for being so inconvinient.

I need to find a bank account that was once supposedly mine. Yet I went on Friday to try to get proof of closed accounts, and it still didn't list a bank account under than number. Wtf... I have to go tomorrow to check again. Thank goodness I don't have class in the morning.

I'm severely procrastinating with this essay. I haven't even finished the required reading. I only have to read half of Guns, Germs and Steel, but I've only read half of the required reading. xD

But I'm severely cheered up by the fact that I can actually go to Yaoi Con this weekend. Omg yay. Thank you soooooooooo much waterpuzzle_ for helping me out~!!! I know you said we weren't gonna discuss it until after Ycon but I'm totally helping you out for ALA :] 

Okay must go back to homework. Blah.

 My dad is gonna rent out the house.

Meaning I won't be living at that house anymore.

...

This is a combination of everything I want and don't want. I want to move out, but not now. I have no money and no where to go.

My dad said we'll talk about it this weekend. He wants me to move with him to Los Angeles. I don't want to.

For the record, I'm not mad at my dad. I think it's a brilliant decision. It just leaves me in quite the predicament...

So yesterday, I let it all out to me dad.

I was broke, penniless. I was struggeling to make ends meet. And I could no longer help him financially because the last time I did it (this past summer) was the end of any last savings I had.

I was a blubbering, sobbing mess.

And I actually got through to my dad.

I'm not relieved or happy. But we're both in quite the deep financial distress that the realization that we couldn't even help each other was quite overpowering.

He didn't scold me, yell at me, or get mad at me. He said I should take better care of my finances, but didn't lecture me too much because he wasn't one to talk, either. He felt guilty, realizing he's sort of abandoned me over the last two years, breaking a promise he'd made to my mom. He's been focusing on this second family, but remembered that I'm still his daughter, in desperate need to be taken care of.

While at the life insurance office (gathering more paper work for health insurance), I was still quite a mess. My dad, too. Since my mom passed away, my parents' health insurance agent, Jatinder, has been trying to get me, my brother and my dad to work for him.

Before I rant on, I should say that Jatinder is a really thoughtful, open-hearted, kind man. Your life insurance agent isn't oblidged to go to your funeral. But he attended the mass for my mom's funeral. He calls occassionally. He blurs the line between business agent and friend.

But that line is a little too blurred for my liking.

In trying ot recruit me, he kept bringing up my mom. Which infuriated me so much that it drove me into more and more tears. "In memory of your mother, you should join, make a stronger, stabler, better living for yourself, for your dad. Your mom would only want the best for you."

It hurt, so fucking much, because all I could hear were the words of a business man. Life insurance is probably an emotionall business, as witnessed by me. But it's still a business. He does a great job at his occupation, but... it was insulting to me. An dhe probably thought I was crying so much because I was so moved.

Other people in his office noticed me, noticed my sadness, and he wasted no time in saying I was a client who already claimed my mom's estate. And it felt like two years ago all over again: the pity looks, the "I'm sorrys" and the "You'll be fine"s. He tried to get a younger agent (my age) to talk to me, and she was sweet and nice and funny but in no way made anything any better.

"How long ago did your mom die?"

"Two years ago."

"Oh, wow. What did she die of?"

"Breast cancer."

"I see. I can't imagine what it'd be like, since my mom never died before."

... no, I'm sure.

Another woman also tried to comfort me, which did anything but comfort me.

"I know it's hard, but you're a strong girl, you'll pull through! Your dad is still here, and doing a wonderful job at taking care of you and raising you, so don't give up!"

... that is everything that fails at even comforting me. Ugh.

My dad decided to try and start out with the company (its Primerica). And I don't object in the least bit. He's having a terrible time in the finding any clients in L.A., and he really does need a better job. But Jatinder wanted to get me along, to be business partners with him. Mostly because I'm younger, more freshly educated, and a little more bilingual.

I'm being handed a chance to make more money, help my family, and become more stable with my life. Jatinder kept saying that I shouldn't turn down this wonderful opportunity, that God was knocking on my door, trying to hand me a better life.

And I still refuse. If God wanted to hand me a better life, he would've done so when my mom passed away. I'm obviously meant to suffer, and I distrust such sudden bouts of luck.

And my dad isn't trying to force me, either: he didn't mention the meeting at all once we left.

I was hurt, angry, sad, scared. Slightly relieved. I don't know. He was all the same, too. It was odd knowing that he feels guilty, but it was scary to see him so vulnerable. A dad is meant to protect his daughter, care for her. And he's failed. And he barely realized it. I think he also realized that I'm his only daughter. He has sons: my older brother, and these little half-brothers that have only just come into my life in the last year. But no other daughter.

Before he dropped me off at home, he promised to do his best to help me financially next year. His tax refund would go to me.

And he also said that things will get fixed up. Like they always do.

I'm sure they will, but for now I'm a little emotionally weary. Christopher was there afterwards with hugs, kisses, an Arizona iced tea and a trip to his house for a chili cheese dog dinner. And Alison was also there for some more Windwaker fun, however short XD

This year was quite interesting. There were many extreme highs: weekends of pure ecstasy and laughter (Fanime, AX, random midngiht food runs, summer trip to San Francisco, endless Disneyland), but extreme lows for me, too.

I really, really hope next year will have shallower lows for me. This year was too much. T_T

For the record, I'm okay. Just really drained.

School, work, friends, and Legend of Zelda games are keeping me sane right now.

My dad, is once again, driving me insane. Because of his previous hospital visits, he's behind at work and money is extremely short for him, hence why I have to help out a bit.

And because he went to the hospital without health insurance, he applied for Medi Care while in the hosptial. I'm going to be covered under it until I'm 21 ( LOL seven months of health insurance ftw) and that's what's driving me crazy: getting all this crap together. Pay stubs and bank statements and bills and social secturity and proof of car ownership and pretty much proof of everything in your life (I seriously do not remeber telling the social worker lady that I worked at Barnes & Noble, and I got a letter saying "Please bring your Barnes & Noble paystub to show proof of employment". What the-?)

Everything is a lot more stressful than it sounds, hence why it's not a great idea to go to Ycon. The trip would be a relief because I've hardly been off my feet for weeks and I'd love another weekend of cosplay geekery. But... yeah. Boo.

ALA is gearing up to  be kickass. I hope it will be.

Photography project will be kickass. We are to do our own project, incorperating everything we've learned this semester (shutter speeds, composition, etc.). It can focus on an assortment of different subjects (portrait, architecture, etc.) or on one alone. And we can pitch our own ideas as well.

And, of course, I'm going to pitch in cosplay for mine.

Which makes me REALLY bummed that I'm missing Ycon. I could've had my project done a whole month early on one weekend. T_T

So, now I must ask my SoCal cosplay buddies: are you all willing for a free, short photoshoot? I have to have a minimum of 30 photos, and choose my 6 best to turn in as prints. And I am willing to give you the print once my project has been graded.

I don't care what the cosplay is. I need to treat this as a proper photoshoot, though. So, yeah, if anyone has a day to spare on a weekend, I'd appreciate it a ton :]

I should go and study... Japanese quiz. Yay?

Only, it was raining a lot yesterday: which I really wish it didn't. Why?

I was going to Disneyland.

lol.

My latest photo project is messing with shutter speeds and apature, and we needed to take pictures of architecture.I discussed with my classmate Mayumi as to where we should go.

"Not Downtown L.A., I've been there before for an earlier project."

"Yeah, I might just take pictures of my neighbor's houses-

"Oh! I'll go to Disneyland! I have an annual pass, I haven't used it since June, so it's been gathering dust, and I've been wanting to go and see all the Halloween stuff and I have so much fun taking pictures there, it'll me perfect for me!"

"... -_-;; you lucky bitch."

And I might add that Mayumi called me a bitch in the most lovingly way anybody can ever call someone else a bitch. xD

So as I went to work early yesterday, it was cold and cloudy. A little later in the day I looked out the window. Still cold and cloudy. I went back to grab a dust rag from my register to go wipe some shelves, and not even a minute later, I look out the window and it's suddenly pouring. It was really weird. But I was bummed. I didn't care about going to Disneyland in the rain. Most of the rides are indoor rides, anyways, and there's always hot chocolate and cookies and brownies or hot sourdough bread-bowl soups. But I didn't want to take my camera out of the rain, seeing as it's expensive and not at all waterproof.

But a customer came in saying "it's crazy that it's raining so hard out here, I just came from Anaheim and it wasn't raining at all-"

"Is it raining at Disneyland?!"

"No, I drove past there not too long ago. Why?"

"I'm headed there after work."

"Ah, you'll be fine."

Sure enough, entering Orange County was weird because it was suddenly dry. As is the weather decided to pour rain in the Inland Empire but not in Orange County. I got to Disneyland in good time, missing the route after driving Miguel a lot during his internship there.

And the lumber company that never fails at awesome quotes had a great one this time around too: "It won't hurt your eyes to look on the bright side of things." This quote has the most awesome quotes on their marquee, I swear.

Anyways, I actually paid for parking because I wanted to lounge for a bit more, and I knew the parks would close early because it was a weekday on the off-season. I was happy to find out that the fireworks would be displayed that night (no Fantasmic, though :[ ).

I love noting different changes in the park, especially if they happen in such a short time span. I last went in June. Since June...

-Prices have gone up. On a lot of things, for example...
   -Parking is $14 instead of $12
   -A one day park ticket is now $72 O.O;;
   -Bottled drinks are now $4
   -Only Premium Annual Passholders get any sort of discount.

The last one caught me by surprise. In June, I was able to get a 10% discount on food anywhere on the resort. I tried to get my discount on a hot chocolate, and was informed that only Premium gets the discounts now (I have a Deluxe pass; second best. lol). I didn't get mad, but it did catch me by surprised. The girl looked nervous, as if I was gonna throw a fit or something.

And I think I just discouraged my friends from ever visiting Disneyland again LOL. The only great deal nowadays is an Annual Pass. Three visits pays it off now.

Paradise Pier, for now, is practically not there. The Orange Stinger (giant orange with the spinning swings inside) is no more. The pier is drained, since they're sitll working on the new light show for spring. And the other half of the pier is blocked out while they build a Little Mermaid ride (which won't open until 2011). All the other rides are closed, but the walls and narrow passageways they leave make it not as enjoyable ^^;

Over at Disneyland, though, Halloween is totally rocking it out. I wasn't able to get on Space Mountain, which is currently being called "Ghost Galaxy". I hear it's so fun... but the line was 55 minutes, FastPass was sold out, and there is no single riders passes for it. So... I opted it out for the night.

Haunted Mansion Holiday is back, and it never fails. I love The Nightmare Before Christmas, which made the fireworks even better....

These were the best, next to Remember. The fireworks almost got cancled about five times throughout the night, because the wind picked up, and 10 minutes before they were scheduled to start, it rained. =_= Of all the times it could've rained on the non-rainy day there, it rained right before the fireworks. LOL. But the rain stopped right when they were scheduled to go on, and on they went.

...

They. Were. Great.

There's a giant sphere placed on top of one of the castle's tower, and they project Jack Skellingon's face on it. He narrates the show, and the show is a TON of crazy and colorful fireworks synchronized to rocked out tracks of Nightmare, as well as other Disney Villian's themes and more haunting Disney tunes (i.e. Hunchback of Notre Dame). My favorite was Oogie Boogie's part... a more revamped, faster-paced of his song with the craziest fireworks and lasers. Just... too cool. XD

And they ended, and I promtly left to avoid people and car traffic in the parking lot lol.

And yes, I did do my homework and got some great shots for photography :]

I wish Miguel still worked there, I want you all to see these fireworks T_T

 My 3rd grade teacher found me on Facebook. LOL.

And I forgot what a sweet person she is! 

Miss Barnes, she was so warm and nice and taught very well. She recognized me, though she thought I was still in high school. 

She seems really excited to catch up with me, and was going through all my photo albums on Facebook. She then sent me a message saying "Who is this Chris guy? He's very cute!" X3

I dunno, it's a bit unusual but still, I forgot how sweet she was. And she keeps asking me how to do things on Facebook, haha.

I'm just dreading on giving her the news about my mom, because she adored my mom: my mom used to work as a noon aid, keeping an eye on the kids during lunch and recess at my elementary school. All the kids and teachers knew and loved her. I know some came to her funeral. I wonder if the news spread to some of my teachers, but I doubt it >.<

Either way, it's just lovely to talk with her again, though I wonder what her thoughts on my cosplay photos are LOL.

Tsubasa ramble is spoilerish, but I'm sure everyone will have read it so yeah. Kingdom Hearts ramble isn't as spoilerish, jsut me squeeing almost silently, but if you wants to ignore it go ahead XD;;

So the epilogue for Tsubasa was cute, and I loved it. Am I the only one who thought that their names being 'Tsubasa' was kinda cute? Yeah, I'm lame like that XD It didn't clear up every loop hole but at least it was a better ending. 

Kurogane and Fay eavesdropping on Sakura and Syaoran as they confess their love to each other was too cute and very appropriate XD

I really like Syaoran leaving on a journey, too. It's what he's made to do, to continue to journey. It's as if the archeologist we first met is still in him and he wants to keep exploring, and will be happy to do so. Sakura staying behind was a little disappointing, but not so much to anger me.

Yeah... now it's kicking in, and Tsubasa is really over. That makes me so... sad now lol. My first anime/manga series, that I obsessed with and cried over... it's over now. Not the ending I would've hoped for but it made me smile and made me content and I'm happy with that.

... and the guys looked super hot in those Clow Country outfits at the very end :D

So, good-bye Tsubasa, though I still very much love the series, and yes I do plan on making more Tsubasa cosplays ^___^

And right now my Kingdom Hearts obsession is totally reignited, holy shit. Christopher walked in on me just as I started the final boss, and all he heard from me were gasps, cries and sobs. Lots of sobs. LOL I love Kingdom Hearts and it's lame but strong angstiness, it always makes me laugh and always makes me cry.

It was odd not to interact with the Disney characters as much as Sora does, but this isn't Sora, so it made sense.

Xion definitely grew on me. I was so angry when I saw her, when she was announced as the 14th member. She was such a Mary-Sue. Keyblade wielder. Friends with Roxas and Axel. C'mon, Nomura, you could've done much better than that.

Well he definitely did. He did a great job with Xion, and her character had me in tears at the end. Axel and Roxas's friendship was something to squee over, whether you like the romantic pairing or just their friendship. The three of them reminded me of the Sora, Kairi and Riku trio and it just made so sad.

There is also a fan service to those waiting for Birth by Sleep. One that made me gasp so loudly it made me lightheaded XD

Ahhhhh I can't wait until Kim and Alison play, especially Alison. We'll have so much to squee over, I promise!

And I can't wait to do the missions with you guys, it's seriously so much fun!!

Huuuuuge Kingdom Hearts mood.... I must cosplay Sora... I must cosplay Sora... it's a cosplay I've always wanted to do since I first heard of Cosplay... I will finish it by AX next year, I must....

Okay, off to play more missions and cry over them.

That's that. It's over.

And I'm... blank.

Slight disappointment, but relief. I'll always love the beginning and middle of the story, and it could've had a great ending. Maybe once the proper interpretations come out they'll make more sense. And I so badly wanted Fei Wang Reed to be Watanuki. Now... FWR is a weird villain. Why did he want to revive Yuuko? I hope xxxHolic answers this.

But yeah. Wow, weird. I'll still love Tsubasa, and KuroFay is still my OTP, but huh. Wierd.

The last splash page was kinda cute, though.

Okay. That's my final ramble. XD Rather ant-climatic.

Off to eat... and play more 358/2 Days XD

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OH MA GAWD I'M IN LOVE ALREADY.

Roxas is too cute. I love interacting with the Organization. Axel's awesome. I DEMAND MORE Demyx.

...That is all for now :D

Off to the Disney College Program meeting. Hoping I get in this time... 3rd time's the charm, maybe?

For once, customer services actually helped me. I called BoA customer services and they withheld any overdraft fees I might recieve, as well as releasing the hold on one of the checks. So... I am not fucked over. Thank goodness. I was greatful to the guy who helped me be either way, that shouldn't have happened.

Anywho, I'm a bit more cheered up by the fact that my inclass essay for history went rather well: I was late to the class (I was in the library taking some last-minute notes ^^; yay go me) but I finished ahead of those around me that had been there for a bit longer than I had. And I didn't BS as much as I usually do lmao. Next time, though, I might ask for your help, Alison, to prepare a bit more. I still procrastinated more than I should have and I could've done much better, but I still did pretty good.

Also, Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days comes out tomorrow, YES. I can't wait to get back into my cheesy KH mood. I can't wait to do the Organization missions with my friends, lol, that's gonna be way too much fun. So yeah, yay new game for my DS that I have abandoned in the last few months and miss, yay for more Kingdom Hearts, which never fails to make me happy and awe me with is corny epicness, and yay for limited edition poster that comes with the pre-order. And also, yay for my employee discount that I also recieve at GameStop. I'm feeling quite better :D

And... someone start pressuring me to finish Cornelia xD I can't wait to finish it but I'm finding myself lazying over it and I don't want it to be a last-minute panic attack like usual. So yeah, lol.

Off to eat, make some errand-phone calls for my dad, and study for Japanese vocab quiz. Photography midterm later tonight... phew, today is quite busy.

And one last note~

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BEKALOU :D

 Have I not said it enough that you guys IRRITATE THE FUCK OUT OF ME?!

Thank you, oh so much, for holding the two checks I deposited yesterday and telling me it was in my account immediately because I deposited them before 8pm, therefore they should've been available immediately. But nah, you held them, now I'm going to be charged 4+ overdraft fees and I am going to be broke once again, especially now that I'd just gotten back on my feet with my finances.

FUCK YOU.

Now the house payment is going to be ultra late and I'm going to be broke off my ass once more because of you.

Your least favorite customer, Nataly.

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Gonna go see if I can fix this mess >.>;;